There is this program on Arts Central called ‘Human Instincts’. It’s a documentary that explains some common human behaviours through science. Don’t know what time the program starts but it should be around 11.30pm-12am on Wednesdays. I usually lie down on bed and watch TV until I feel sleepy.

My boss told me in his office that he might bring me to Paris with him some time during March. To talk to the developers there on how we can work together to integrate their websites with the one I’m working on now. Upon hearing this I frozed for a few seconds. It feels something big and if I cock up, I’ll cause trouble everywhere. [:(] . Worse still, French people have a heavy accent and I might have trouble trying to understand what they’re trying to say. [X(]

I need to work on my knowledge now. Gonna go learn what XML and RSS is all about. I have a feeling it’ll be helpful.

“Scattered” by Green Day.

I’ve got some scattered pictures lying on my bedroom floor.
Reminds me of the times we shared.
Makes me wish that you were here.
Now it seems I’ve forgotten my purpose in this life.
All the songs have been erased.
Guess I’ve learned from my mistakes.

Open the past and present.
Now and we are there.
Story to tell and I am listening.
Open the past and present.
And the future too.
It’s all I’ve got and I’m giving it up to you.

Loose ends tied in knots.
Leaving a lump down in my throat.
Gagging on a souvenir.
Lodged to fill another year.
Drag it on and on until my skin is ripped to shreds.
Leaving myself wide open.
Living out a sacrifice.

If you got no one and I’ve got no place to go, would it be alright?
Could it be alright?

Afternoon Tea

I’m limiting myself to a cup of coffee a day, just to keep my headache away. Can’t believe I got so hooked I had 3-4 cups a day last year during my industrial attachment. So now, during work, I have a cup in the morning to rev up myself. During afternoon, if I feel too sleepy, I go for a hot cup of Lipton tea.

I did a lot of thinking since last week. The result is more problems to think about [:(]. One thing for sure, I know myself a lot better than before. Perhaps this is just temporary. Perhaps I’m entering the next chapter of a book titled ‘Erik Yang’. Perhaps I’m heading towards a mental breakdown. Perhaps… perhaps… perhaps…

I might have unstable personalities, behaviours. I don’t have a particular favourite color, food, music genre, anime, manga or hobby. It all boils down to my mood. If I feel like having chicken rice, I go for chicken rice. It is/was never my favourite food. Sometimes I think I’m mature, other times I find myself having childish thoughts. And sometimes I feel like robbing a fat kid of his McDonald’s happy meal. No self control.

All the thinking might be affecting me indirectly. I misinterpret what others type, my emotions are mixing and running wild, can’t concentrate well, and my rate of spelling errors is going up.

And so I went back to listening to my old Green Day album, Dookie. Feels so darn good to listen to their songs again. [:)]

Excerpt from “Chump” by Green Day
Maybe it’s just jealousy
Mixing up with a violent mind
A circumstance that doesn’t make much sense
Or maybe I’m just dumb

Back when I started listening to Green Day, a lot of their songs didn’t make much sense to me. I had a poor understanding of english cos I didn’t pay attention in classes and I don’t read much. All I liked was their music and the singer, Billie Joe’s voice/style-of-singing. But slowly, I’m beginning to understand the lyrics.

Just a quote

<deophite> HOLLAND, Michigan (AP) — Tacking Jr. or II onto a boy’s name is too common, a new father decided, so the self-described engineering geek took a software approach to naming his newborn son.
<deophite> Jon Blake Cusack talked his wife, Jamie, into naming their son Jon Blake Cusack 2.0.
<Yale> nice ;x
<Craisin> haha
<Craisin> when he learns to walk, 2.1



It’s just one of those times again where I fuck things up and piss off everyone around me. Well, a bad habit of mine. Losing self control. I should quiet down for a while, isolate myself from everyone if there’s a need, and rethink things…

This is what I hate about myself…

I’ll most probably stop blogging for a week or two.


Today is a nice day. Not too hot and not too cold. Perfect weather for a walk but instead, I chose to stay at home. Haha.

I have totally given up all hope on the AthlonXP [:(]. All those crashes and OS freezes have corrupted my web server twice, my irc script once, my monitor drivers once and my graphic card drivers once too, all on different occasions.

Going to sell it off. Before reinstalling my Thunderbird CPU, I made a second attempt to unlock it. Some CPUs come factory locked. Which means they are locked at time of manufacturing to prevent overclocking. There are many reasons to do this. One example, some evil scheming computer dealer would overclock a machine’s AthlonXP 1400+ to an AthlonXP 2000+ and sell it off to an innocent know-nothing-at-all buyer at a higher price. More profit.

There are many unlocking techniques for different CPUs, for mine, it was just simply drawing thick lines over 4 L1 bridges on my CPU with pencil. Yes! Pencil! Pencil leads are electrically conductive enough be used to join the bridges that had been cut off during manufacture. Unlocking it means I can now overclock my CPU by adjusting the multipliers. The speed of a CPU is determined by multiplier and FSB(MHz). The default config was 10x100FSB=1000MHz. I increased the multiplier, thus giving me 12x100FSB=1200MHz. [:D]

Registered like I said I would. USD$57.76, SGD $97.73. Both look like potential numbers I could use to buy 4D. Hahaha. It’s going to take up to 24 hours, from time of registration, for it to be activated.

The new blog image, was done without much effort but I felt a little satisfaction. I loved the colors. Gives me a nostalgic feeling, the days at Parry primary school, playing with my friends on the huge school field while waiting for the school van to pick us up and send us home. The full picture without the white highlights can be seen by clicking here. The female elf is from the game, Lineage 2.