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I came across a quote by Albert Einstein “Science without religion is lame, religion without science is blind”. Which led me to here.

I had always known Albert Einstein as a scientist. Little did I know who he truly was till some googling was done on the above-mentioned quote. I randomly read some of his quotes and most of them are very provocative. His words may change the way I perceive. I feel another wave of confusion flooding my mind. [X|] And I have a whole new respect for Albert Einstein.

There is this program on Arts Central called ‘Human Instincts’. It’s a documentary that explains some common human behaviours through science. Don’t know what time the program starts but it should be around 11.30pm-12am on Wednesdays. I usually lie down on bed and watch TV until I feel sleepy.

My boss told me in his office that he might bring me to Paris with him some time during March. To talk to the developers there on how we can work together to integrate their websites with the one I’m working on now. Upon hearing this I frozed for a few seconds. It feels something big and if I cock up, I’ll cause trouble everywhere. [:(] . Worse still, French people have a heavy accent and I might have trouble trying to understand what they’re trying to say. [X(]

I need to work on my knowledge now. Gonna go learn what XML and RSS is all about. I have a feeling it’ll be helpful.

“Scattered” by Green Day.

I’ve got some scattered pictures lying on my bedroom floor.
Reminds me of the times we shared.
Makes me wish that you were here.
Now it seems I’ve forgotten my purpose in this life.
All the songs have been erased.
Guess I’ve learned from my mistakes.

Open the past and present.
Now and we are there.
Story to tell and I am listening.
Open the past and present.
And the future too.
It’s all I’ve got and I’m giving it up to you.

Loose ends tied in knots.
Leaving a lump down in my throat.
Gagging on a souvenir.
Lodged to fill another year.
Drag it on and on until my skin is ripped to shreds.
Leaving myself wide open.
Living out a sacrifice.

If you got no one and I’ve got no place to go, would it be alright?
Could it be alright?

I’m limiting myself to a cup of coffee a day, just to keep my headache away. Can’t believe I got so hooked I had 3-4 cups a day last year during my industrial attachment. So now, during work, I have a cup in the morning to rev up myself. During afternoon, if I feel too sleepy, I go for a hot cup of Lipton tea.

I did a lot of thinking since last week. The result is more problems to think about [:(]. One thing for sure, I know myself a lot better than before. Perhaps this is just temporary. Perhaps I’m entering the next chapter of a book titled ‘Erik Yang’. Perhaps I’m heading towards a mental breakdown. Perhaps… perhaps… perhaps…

I might have unstable personalities, behaviours. I don’t have a particular favourite color, food, music genre, anime, manga or hobby. It all boils down to my mood. If I feel like having chicken rice, I go for chicken rice. It is/was never my favourite food. Sometimes I think I’m mature, other times I find myself having childish thoughts. And sometimes I feel like robbing a fat kid of his McDonald’s happy meal. No self control.

All the thinking might be affecting me indirectly. I misinterpret what others type, my emotions are mixing and running wild, can’t concentrate well, and my rate of spelling errors is going up.

And so I went back to listening to my old Green Day album, Dookie. Feels so darn good to listen to their songs again. [:)]

Excerpt from “Chump” by Green Day
Maybe it’s just jealousy
Mixing up with a violent mind
A circumstance that doesn’t make much sense
Or maybe I’m just dumb

Back when I started listening to Green Day, a lot of their songs didn’t make much sense to me. I had a poor understanding of english cos I didn’t pay attention in classes and I don’t read much. All I liked was their music and the singer, Billie Joe’s voice/style-of-singing. But slowly, I’m beginning to understand the lyrics.